I wont deny that the past two weeks have been challenging to say the least. Yet, you know what? I made it!
In spite of feeling momentarily powerless, in despair, and in some moments feeling a little on the edge….I am here to share and prove to you, and to myself, that everything passes.
It doesn’t mean that I may not have a few more days like it within the next few months but I can say, hand on heart, that in spite of how I felt 24 hours ago, in this moment I feel joy.
I cannot quite understand it or explain it and I don’t feel as though I need to….I am simply going to experience and enjoy the joy because it is here!
What were some of the tools I have used during these past weeks? Well, truthfully, I have ‘let it all out’. Wow, did I have some moments where it felt as though lava was flowing out of me and I am sure anyone going past me at the time would have been in danger of being incinerated! (I can laugh as I now type!)
Yes, I simply let it all out, and my husband at times just sat there or lay there and let me go for it, not trying to fix anything, or take away my pain, just simply allowed me to be and feel the feelings. (Note again, they didn’t kill me).
Another thing is that I have continued to exercise, and on a few occasions really pushed myself. Now that totally changed my state on some days. I went to the gym feeling sorry for myself then came out feeling like and Amazon Woman. Reminder….please, move your body!
Another thing was I cuddled my cat…. A lot! I also accepted lots of cuddles from my husband. I stopped trying to be stoic and simply allowed myself to be taken care of. Note to all ladies….our men like to be able to take care of us! I have now learned to allow it. J
OK…so that was my little blog. What was my intention for writing it? To remind myself, and you, that everything passes.